Day by day i waited .. now it is getting nearer, I could once again see till her be with her for 6days.. i am glad..
I miss u..
I am rushing for the next day..
but i hope the day i be with could be slower and longer
I love you..
Last three weeks or a month ago ( not really remember ) , i went to my communication study class… erm sound so pro but just a normal english class..
Topic of the day is all about True Love.
Lecturer ask many question about it, such as define the meaning of True love
Answer:
- feel warm and comfortable
- willing to sacrifice
- undefine
- blabla
those are the normal answer
crazy answer but sound true
- cheating each other ( by xue min )
- answer from xuemin dictionary ( by thomas )
- i have no answer for this ( by eric )
- blablabla
Everyone has put a different defination on what is the meaning of True Love. For me even i define it. I think i define it very well compare to them..( bwahhahaha )
Answer from me :
- Treating each other without doubt , sincere , honest , feeling and willing to
sacrifice anything such as time , gold , and yourself to her/him without asking
back or payback.Lastly actually i can’t answer why i love her because exist of
something that i couldn’t define till now towards her that never exist in my
surrounding.
For me is something like this. Why? Yes this how i maintain my relationship towards her since the first day i being with her till now. This year i going to be our incoming 5th year anniversary ><.. so Long .. hahah.. and i know that i love her. That is the statement and fact never disappear from my heart. XD
I wrote before what is love but i still doubt of this word "LOVE". From the day i enter University, i have been seeing too much of this incident which make me more curious. Everyone has different situation to deal with. It looks like it is hard days for them but some sweet day just like honey moon.
From what i see now, i saw that a person suddenly felt that he want to take care of the person suddenly problem occured and he make a mistake that causes him to take up the responsibility. He proof to me age wasnt a matter in Love. He also show me that trusting his love is very important. The problem in this love relationship, he hardly know what is the girl mind is thinking or what happening in the girl. He stand up in his point by trusting her. I am proud of him.At last they broke up due to distance.
In the second situation, he show me that understanding between each other is important. There is no point you keep struggle in getting her heart. Understanding came up the point and the key of love. Although he sad whenever he saw her but he never regret from the decision he made.
In a girl situation i saw that, they are tough in the physical but everyone knew that they are weak when they are alone. She broke up with him this year i guess, she insist to have another relationship because she feel that she need to calm down and want to be single a the moment. In the words actually she brings up that "i can handle the situation but when i am alone ,i am lonely."
Love is love but when it came in relationship it doesnt mean that you need to put in love. I have met them. Many of them around me they want to build up a relationship not because of love but is about they feel that they need it.
Why can’t they find for someone they love to start a relationship?
Believe this , when u do like this you will be regret when the relationship end.
Loving is beautiful. True love is perfect . Dont let a problem be a problem.Learn to solve it together.Learning is a progress of growing. Enjoy but not suffer. Believe that True Love really exist.. Wootz … it is 1.32am 1/5/08 >< Good night.
Wootz guess who is back? Yes is me ..
Everyone should be wondering why am i doesn’t use back that blogspot account.Well i can say that i forget almost everything there especially my mail and password XD…
I also doesn’t know why i am back here to blog again.
-Maybe i feel that i need to
-Maybe i need a way to express
-Maybe i know you all know what i feel
- …. many many more guar… still doesnt know why
- but i just know i am blogging now XD
Well i think most of you all knew that i am 21 years old , from sitiawan , perak but i found out that not all of you know that i am study at LimkokWing.
Just to tell you guys that i am study at Limkokwing taking BA Hons Industrial Design.
Dont ask me why am i taking that…
I really have no idea. I just do what ever i feel so.I am happy i taking that course and i also sad i taking that course.
hmm, i think just skip that part.. no idea how to intro myself…
I just feel that i want to release something
-just my feeling
-not my waste stuff <shit nor urine>
-Doesnt bother whether you care a anot .. XD
Once upon a time < i am not that old ok XD
No la just joking.
I just having a bad semester begining of the year.Actually everything started well at the begining but after "she" went to national service .. My moods my feeling i doesnt know why till now, its very unstable.I doesnt know what to express i doesnt know which feeling i am in i doesnt know what mood i should show. I doesnt know what i should do throughout the days. I just knew that i feel i need her .. and yes i need her. Till today i try and i tried my best to settle down my mood my feeling and myself. Yes i could show and express and settle down myself when i at class when i facing my friend but when i come in my room i am different.Why? it is because i doesnt want them to know doesnt want them to worry.
One of my friend here and he is the one who understand me, he told me that i am facing something is scary.Ya it is.. he told me in chinese "kong shu" which mean emptiness.What is emptiness? I not really understand it as well.He told me that when u couldnt find anything in yourself , you couldnt find which feeling , which expression , which mood to express means like you feel like you are empty . Ya when i enter my room i am in this situation.
But to take a better defination.. i found it from wikipedia.org
In the painful sense, it is described as a feeling of numbness, inability to feel anything emotionally, or not having purpose. It can be better described as a situation where a certain lack or lacks in one’s life overtake the emotional and mental focus in an obsessive, sometimes subconscious manner. Feelings of emptiness often accompany chronic discontent, dysthymia, [1] depression, loneliness, despair, or other mental/emotional disorders such as borderline personality disorder. It may seek expression through different types of self-harming behaviors, and in more extreme cases, suicide.
Emptiness often involves alienation, be it temporary or acquired, and sometimes self-hatred.
Persons tending to feel emptiness often come from problematic familial
backgrounds. If at all there was a family nucleus, their needs were
ignored, they were considered second class, they experienced many
separations, or there was outright abuse [2][3] (see also the role of childhood abuse in BPD individuals).
A sense of emptiness is not always associated as such, and may be part of a natural process of grief, as resulting of separation, death of a loved one, or other significant changes to one’s life.
but but but.. dont worry because i still know who am i… i not facing depression.But when somebody say he doesnt drunk means he is drunk while he is drinking alcohol.
Well now is 29/4/2008 1.23 am or accurately is 0123 and its mean "she" is 18 years old and 1 hour and 23 minute. Time passes and yes i do miss "her" a lot.I hope that i could tell you this today … at 12 am . Do you all know that time will never turn back? i just hope that i could be with "her" especially today. I want "her" to know that, yes i am not a good boyfriend but i just want "her" to know that "I love you".
Happy Birthday my dearest Ling
When i put my head against your head and look deep into your eye, i mean it and i want to tell you that how much i miss you.
Holding your hand, Is a promise from me to you to walk with you forever.
Hugging doesnt just bring comfortable and warm only but to show that i willing to protect you and stand by your side as well as treasure you and every moment we facing together from time to time.
When your head lean on my shoulder, i want you to know that i am at here whenever you want me eventhough you are happy or sad.
A kiss doesnt mean satisfaction for both of us but to show i have an unmeasurable Love from me to you.
3 words although i know is old …
I love you
